Friday, December 31, 2010

the B side

this was the heaven of the B side. I still can't believe I was there, I haunted those streets, that room, that pink elevator :), those bridges, those lights. seems like this year went too fast. or maybe it's for the best. I realised that I never made resolutions, like many people as I can see tend to do. I guess anyway it would be in vain, since what I would've get there never came true.  on one side if you stop and think it gets scarry: the last day of 2010. it's not like it's a huge year, but it's another year of this so short life, when dreams and hopes are so many. I only wish things would depend more on us, on how we act, how we are. I was hoping NYE would catch me in another place, yet I'm home. I could say that I'm grateful for having my family around, for meeting (not so many) people that I can't believe they still exist in this (m)bad world,  but I don't. cause I've always learned on my own skin to be afraid, to not say loud the good things. it's like bad karma. everytime I am happy for what I have, what I feel, it's taken away in the end.

I only leave this:

Thursday, December 30, 2010


... somehow I managed to give my room that coziness (feeling) I imagine when I think of Christmas and lights and in spring I'll have to work even more on it. probably Santa gave me the opportunity to choose between a dream trip in 3 cities and a dream camera. to make my heart and mind feel better, I made it in the cities. I'm still  hungering for that dslr camera, but I'm not sorry I left. not at all.
once again I found out that a piece of me will always remain there. don't know why or how, cause I don't think my life would be greater there, I would have more money, more friends or lover. it's always that strange sensation that here the only thing that ties me is my family. I just hope someday I'll find my place, cause I'm sure I belong somewhere else, wherever that is.

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

one heart found her way home

after being broken on these hard roads, one dreamer managed to bind up the cracked piece and took the heart home.
now she's complete.

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Monday, November 29, 2010

Friday, November 19, 2010

(try to) keep calm and have a cupcake

you can't imagine what a melting, super druper extra sweet effect this tiny book has on me!

Monday, November 15, 2010

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Thursday, November 11, 2010

good advice for hard times

guess what made me the happiest girl in the world this morning? ♥

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Monday, November 8, 2010

Friday, November 5, 2010

just another ordinary day

and today was another ordinary day. commutation towards univ. and now I'm sitting in my seat with no 21 and like a foolish child I'm proud of it ^_^. there you go! the sun is trying to get through these windows and swing me, making me fall asleep so easily. since my train is late, I'll probably skip the first class of mng and head straight to my british culture class. shame on me. oh well, at least I like my hair today(not too much!) so bad day for science and good day for hair.

ps: I don't even know why I'm writing all these tiny details, but I guess lately I just felt the need to put down my thoughts, just the way they are.
ps1: dark burgundy nails all the way!
ps2: bad phone pictures. bad, bad.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

today I wish for

Topshop dress ♥ Dior shoes ♥ Diana Dreamer camera ♥ Miss Dior Chérie fragrance ♥ Pénélope Bagieu book

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

today I wish for

Zara dress ♥ Chanel nail polishes ♥ Keep Calm and Carry On book ♥ Forever21 rings ♥ Mulberry Alexa bag ♥ Ticket to Paris

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

today I wish for

Carven coat ♥ Topshop nailpolish&lingerie ♥ Mulberry Alexa bag ♥ Tim Walker book

Monday, November 1, 2010

new goodies

tiny goodies, but good goodies :)

Sunday, October 31, 2010


ok, collages are not my strongest point, but at least I have nice wishes, right?

Saturday, October 30, 2010

I wish I was your favourite girl

I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world
I wish my smile was your favourite kind of smile
I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style
I wish that you knew when I said two sugars
Actually, I meant three
I wish that without me your heart would break
I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake
I wish that without me you couldn't eat
I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep

Wednesday, October 27, 2010


... it's been like 5 months since I've bought these floral sneakers and just about today I got to wear them. they made me feel like living in a garden :). it's so strange how such tiny things make one feel different. I guess it happens to me all the time: to buy things and get to wear them after a long long time. is it just me being the wierd or everybody has these habits?

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Sunday, October 24, 2010

i love

when I feel the first snow each year as if you were there with me, soft and warm inside me.

and I hate that it's like happiness. it only lasts like the blink of an eye.

Friday, October 22, 2010

Friday, October 15, 2010

Thursday, October 14, 2010

a part of my world where time stops.

the drawing in the 7th picture still intrigues me.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

quelqu’un m’a dit

I know my pictures are bad. my time is bad. the world around me is bad. maybe the world around you isn't that bad. but I still like the foggy lightness in my pictures. can you see it?

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Friday, September 17, 2010

Wednesday, September 15, 2010


see you soon, dear  Budapest.
PS: thank you for your heart, R.

Monday, September 13, 2010

Saturday, September 11, 2010

i'm not ok

why do you cry?

why do you listen to sad songs when you know they make your heart bleed more?

why are you so afraid of changes?

why are so weak?

why your lips are so pale and your green eyes so... liquid?

it's not ok.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

note to self:

seasons change. people don't.

(thank you R ❤)

Sunday, August 29, 2010

flowers will be gone. the autumn coat will be here.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Sunday, August 22, 2010

I want a boy who will move the hair away from my eyes, and then kiss me. Who will hold my hand in line at the mall and make all the girls jealous. A boy who will sing to me at random moments. Who lets me sleep on his chest. I want a guy who will tell his family and friends all about me. Bring me soup or orange juice when I’m sick. I want a boy who is more goofy than romantic, but knows the right things to say at the right times. I want a boy who will call me 3 times a day if he went away. A boy who will apologize for calling too much, and no matter how many times I tell him its okay, he’d still do it. A boy who will let me gossip to him and just smile and agree with everything I say.

A boy who will throw stuffed animals at me when I acted dumb and then jump on me and kiss me a million times. Who will bet kisses on who could beat who at game. Who makes fun of me and himself just to make me laugh. A boy who will take me to the park, put his hands around my waist and give me big bear hugs all the time. A boy who will kiss my neck, just to have a reason to tell me how much he loves my new perfume. I want a boy who, at night, will dance in his pajamas with me. A boy who will take pictures in photo booths with me, someone who will never turn down a day of sitting arownd with me, doing nothing but talking and who will play tag on the beach with me. A boy who could sit with me on the kitchen floor and eat sandwiches. Who will kiss me in the pouring rain. I want a boy who would try to teach me how to play the drums, even if we just end up laughing at each other. I want a boy who will run his fingers through my hair, share his lollipops with me, and get along with all of my friends. Someone who would never be afraid to say I love you in front of his friends and someone who would argue with me about silly things just to make up. I want a boy who will take me shopping with him. Someone who will kiss me at midnight on New Years and who will make funny faces at me when I’m on the phone. I want a boy who will count stars with me and read books with me. I want a boy who will stay home with me on a Friday night just to help me make dinner and watch movies together under the same blanket. Someone who will squirt water guns at me in the house after I’ve got him soaked. I want a boy who dresses normal clothes but wears them like a fashion icon. A boy with style, who could make me laugh like no one else can. I want a boy who is in love with art, a boy who will hold me closer than normal when I’m sick, and would play with my hair. But mostly I want a boy who is a best friend and will always be there for me.

please hurry.

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Monday, August 16, 2010

Sunday, August 15, 2010


is a feeling in which people experience a strong sense of emptiness and solitude. loneliness is often compared to feeling empty, unwanted, and unimportant. someone who is lonely may find it hard to form strong interpersonal relationships.