Friday, December 31, 2010

the B side

this was the heaven of the B side. I still can't believe I was there, I haunted those streets, that room, that pink elevator :), those bridges, those lights. seems like this year went too fast. or maybe it's for the best. I realised that I never made resolutions, like many people as I can see tend to do. I guess anyway it would be in vain, since what I would've get there never came true.  on one side if you stop and think it gets scarry: the last day of 2010. it's not like it's a huge year, but it's another year of this so short life, when dreams and hopes are so many. I only wish things would depend more on us, on how we act, how we are. I was hoping NYE would catch me in another place, yet I'm home. I could say that I'm grateful for having my family around, for meeting (not so many) people that I can't believe they still exist in this (m)bad world,  but I don't. cause I've always learned on my own skin to be afraid, to not say loud the good things. it's like bad karma. everytime I am happy for what I have, what I feel, it's taken away in the end.

I only leave this:

Thursday, December 30, 2010


... somehow I managed to give my room that coziness (feeling) I imagine when I think of Christmas and lights and in spring I'll have to work even more on it. probably Santa gave me the opportunity to choose between a dream trip in 3 cities and a dream camera. to make my heart and mind feel better, I made it in the cities. I'm still  hungering for that dslr camera, but I'm not sorry I left. not at all.
once again I found out that a piece of me will always remain there. don't know why or how, cause I don't think my life would be greater there, I would have more money, more friends or lover. it's always that strange sensation that here the only thing that ties me is my family. I just hope someday I'll find my place, cause I'm sure I belong somewhere else, wherever that is.

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

one heart found her way home

after being broken on these hard roads, one dreamer managed to bind up the cracked piece and took the heart home.
now she's complete.

Sunday, December 19, 2010