... somehow I managed to give my room that coziness (feeling) I imagine when I think of Christmas and lights and in spring I'll have to work even more on it. probably Santa gave me the opportunity to choose between a dream trip in 3 cities and a dream camera. to make my heart and mind feel better, I made it in the cities. I'm still hungering for that dslr camera, but I'm not sorry I left. not at all.
once again I found out that a piece of me will always remain there. don't know why or how, cause I don't think my life would be greater there, I would have more money, more friends or lover. it's always that strange sensation that here the only thing that ties me is my family. I just hope someday I'll find my place, cause I'm sure I belong somewhere else, wherever that is.