i'm weak and high.
Monday, March 28, 2011
Thursday, March 24, 2011
now i am quietly waiting for the catastrophe of my personality to seem beautiful again, and interesting, and modern
even if here is still winter, spring left me its flowers. and since last year, each spring i'm obsessed with tulips. i found out that back in time, there was also a period called tulipmania, not like i feel now, but a period in the dutch golden age during which contract prices for bulbs of the recently introduced tulip reached extraordinarily high levels and many were sold out immediately.
i wish i could have enough money to buy me a huge bouquet of 21 rosy tulips. someday, dreamer. hold on. also this h&m ring from prague keeps me strong each time i wear it. it's wierd, but it works.
(again) i hope these days travelling will be enough to fill my mind with peace ♥
Sunday, March 20, 2011
so last time i went to the univ i had some time to go to carturesti and bricostore, where i got some nice flowers for my grandma, Taichi Yamada's Strangers for my mom, which i took from her one night and i didn't let it go until i finished it. it was very captivating yet with a not so happy ending.
another thingie i bought from carturesti is the i ♥ tea tote, yummy, cheap and good for the upcoming summer. i'm still working on having any sort of healthy breakfast in the mornings, but it's really really hard. maybe in time things will change, not only in the lifestyle part, but also on the heart side. i still hope. i don't care if they blame me for that.
Sunday, March 13, 2011
even now at 6.10 am, when i'm writing this, bitter tears come down. i still can't believe, understand why, how people can be so cruel. how can their heart, their consciousness, their daily thoughts let them breath?
maybe i'm too stupid and limited to understand, to pass beyond this limit of understanding, of "wisdom". and it drives me crazy and frustrated.
i so miss you, B :(
i know you'll be happier wherever you are, you have to.