Monday, December 31, 2012

she continues to create a world entirely of her own


so.
this is our second day, actually afternoon spent in vienna, re-feeling again the burst of inspiration from so many beautiful rushed people, so many old but well cared buildings and streets, so many fashionable places and cafes and an air that can't be translated into my humble photos taken with a nikon d3100 but that look like taken with an old camera.
there you can trully feel like it's impossible not to do something, not to burn on the inside. i don't know, it's a sweet overwhelming pleasure :).
now, as i'm typing from just a few hours before 2012 is gone, even writing it sounds awkward, i can't help but think again of all the things people say on facebook or at tv's or on the streets, how they unconsciously admit to leave behind days that will unfortunately never return, that they are preparing so fancy for a night that will seem just like another night on the outside, but we make it a big deal on the inside. that is a scarry thing for me, some people say it's overdramatizing, some take it seriously. i don't like making resolutios, cause i know that all sort of circumstances may appear on the path and change the direction of all things, but while i was in the shower today, i was actually thinking there are 5 big dreams or wishes i have for the next year, wishes that actually i'll have for the next years: become and stay healthy, have my dear ones by my side, move or at least travel to paris (aaaaall people around the universe must know by now how much i've been mushing and crying and wishing over paris:) ), get a job that i enjoy at least 50% (that's a lot to ask too, i know) and grow big, learn and get a new camera/lenses for my photography.
i won't get started now with typing that i wish you x and y and z and be all cutsy and wiiiiii:), i know that the people who do well and stay beautiful inside will definitely make their dreams come true, no matter the year.

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

december


i'm still sick and it makes me tired all the time, so i barely move around the apartment. 
it sucks, i know.
through this all, i was thinking of posting inspirational photos daily, as my eyes meet so so many beautiful photos and i would really want to change the melancholic mood around here, which is pretty boring most of the times, i am aware, but i'm not that sure.
any thoughts, (if)out there, guys and gals?
also, these 2 products are among my besties, they are affordable + smell so so pretty, yumm.

Friday, December 7, 2012

something in me vibrates to a dusky, dreamy smell of dying moons and shadows

just days passing by around the apartment. i've been living for 24 years and i still feel strange when seasons change. hm.
this is one of the prettiest blouses i have in my wardrobe.
i'm so hopelessly enamored with lace and powdery colors.
oh, and yes, even if it's winter already, i won't give up. i'll still have fresh flowers around, somehow.

Monday, December 3, 2012

and a gif i made here.

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

november comes and november goes, along with my dreams, my fears and the first white snow

i can't believe it's almost december. gosh, time flies so fast.
i'm lusting for so many sweaters and shoes and bags and colours and magazines and places and spaces and none of them are looking bright or closer to me now :(.
these two oversized sweaters were bought on sale some time ago from sprider store, 7e each and some cosy high knee socks, i love their motif with the white flower.
i also read lula play, with really inspiring people and stories about their daily motivation and activity, each with their own talent.
and of course i had to buy this oh-so-sweet rosey headband from h&m. it's very me:). and yes, i'm still sad i didn't had the chance to buy myself the martin margiela hair necklace, it was pretty much the only thing i could've afford from the collection, but it was way too far and long the road to the nearest store, 500km away.

Friday, November 23, 2012

autumn II

this is the second set of photos i took some days ago.
i'm actually glad autumn's still here, i think it's been a while since we actually had a third season, without jumping from late summer to winter. sometimes i wish i had the most amazing lenses to be able to capture with my eyes all the colours and different shapes and forms that this season creates around here, between the trees and the places around this tiny city.
also lately i've been feeling very wierd, a bit lost, maybe more, i don't know, feeling like everyone else has a meaning and a purpose in their life, a job, friends, a life and i'm just wasting free time on watching movies and tv shows, searching for inspirational people, blogs and photos, tumblr-ing, taking personal photos, eating, taking late night walks, watching tv with mom, grandpa, grandma and bubu, dreaming of paris and feeling like it just isn't ment to be, lusting over cos perfect dresses, charlotte olympia shoes, bouclé sweaters, wolf's determination, sending cvs and e-mails for jobs or internships from whom i never get a reply (internships are unpaid, why can't i get it?). yes, complaining won't help me, but this is my personal space and i think i am entitled to write my heart out here.

Monday, November 19, 2012

autumn the I st

you just can't stop taking photos.

Saturday, November 17, 2012

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

enduring fighter with masked passions

your responses indicate that you have a normal desire to share yourself with others. however, this need is not being adequately fulfilled at present.
as a result, you unconsciously attempt to treat this emptiness with momentary interests and temporary passions. If left unaddressed, this imbalance leads to impulsive behavior and unnecessary risks.
past betrayals have left you generally suspicious of others’ behavior, particularly regarding romantic relationships. you fear you may be exploited if you open yourself too fully. consequently, you often seek some proof of a new friend’s or lover’s sincerity before you decide to trust them.
further complicating your relationships is the anxiety you have about your unfulfilled personal and professional goals. you fear that you’ve made decisions that weren’t in your own best interest, or failed to take advantage of opportunities when they presented themselves.
the desire to overcome these challenges sometimes lead you to seem pushy or even arrogant. because this competitive urge is not always apparent to others, they are often surprised by it.
however, the passion that underlies your desire for success is unique. this makes you unlike others. you cannot simply accept what life has to offer; you aspire for more.

so i made a test today.
(http://byzantiumtests.com/, anybody can do it)
so i was just thinking.
(not that anyone would care. nobody cares except yourself.)

so i woke up this morning


Monday, November 12, 2012

12th night of november

skinny heart. that's all.

Friday, November 9, 2012

Thursday, November 8, 2012

first thursday of november

i heard noises and i woke up. i took these pictures, with the view from my window, sometimes wondering if i'm lucky to be here, close to these mountains and how some live by the sea and don't get to know how lucky they are during the summer or reverse.
but i'm still half asleep.
now grandma sent me a few apple pie edges, i love them, cause they're crispier.
oh, back to bed soon, it's getting cold here at this table. brr.

Monday, November 5, 2012

when you said 'i can see me in your eyes', i said 'i can see you in my bed', that's not just friendship that's romance too, i like music we can dance to


tonight i just feel romantic. hopeless romantic.
and i saw these beauties and many more at the museum of natural sciences.

Sunday, November 4, 2012

my tiny things of beauty



admiring photography through different websites, eating pancakes (bad, bad, i know) and x-factor tonight.
nothing fancy.
anything fancy?

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

she lives the poetry she cannot write. or how i was in dreamland


these pictures just can't describe the real image you have in front of you or that amazing feeling that surrounds your whole body once you've enter this place, that seems like in the middle of nowhere. my humble camera or any super camera or lens is powerless.
yet i am really grateful i got the chance to be there. it isn't versailles, but it is something special. and i have so many other pictures, i spent two hours just saying oh, ah and click click.

Friday, October 26, 2012

the story of a tiny pair of shoes

this is the story of a tiny cute pair of suede powder pink shoes/brogues i bought from the local chinese shop, they aren't that fancy or super quality, but they looked so cute and childish i had to have them :).
so tonight we played a bit around the apartment.
silly me, right, i know.
i never celebrated halloween, i've never been to a party, but i was thinking of dressing up somehow or at least put on some different make-up and go for a promenade at midnight.
does that sound normal to anyone? probably not.
i haven't made up my mind yet.
i'm going to take a nice bath and watch tv on this friday night. cool, right? :)

Monday, October 22, 2012

paint my daisies



i am really happy i got my hands on this be-au-ti-ful all-over-the-place daisy print black bag. it's so cute and perfect!
my black vernis supply was out so i bought a medusa one from my local shop and some white daisy pins, very cheap, less than one euro both.
and i'm still lusting over so many nice things.

Sunday, October 21, 2012

prague


today i was looking on flickr for inspiration and photos and i stumbled upon my old photos from the first and last time i ended up in Prague.
yep, i didn't planned to get there, actually Bratislava was in my/our mind, but hey, i'm really happy it turned out that way.
my ex-camera batteries were off exactly as i arrived in Wenceslas Square and i had to use my phone.
i really miss Prague and i was hoping to get there, again, after two years, in December. but.. we'll see.

chybíš mi, Praha.

Thursday, October 18, 2012

with grace in my heart and flowers in my hair

beautiful flowers i just bought for two most important women in my life. and they smell so so pretty, so naturelle.
yes, i can't get out of the house without my dark brownish ysl eyeshadow and black eyeliner. and hate it if you want, i love unretouched blurry pictures.
tonight i'm going to pick-up mom from the train station, she's coming back from job duties in brasov and predeal and we're gonna surprise my grandpas.
i am starting to wish i could write or chat with different persons around the world more, as in online, but i guess it's pretty hard to find the right connections.

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

these autumn days

 i bought this tiny necklace from the local sunny beach market when i was at seaside last month.
but i still dream of a cristal/quartz one, an affordable one that is.
i wonder what everybody else is doing these days, besides work and school/uni.

Monday, October 8, 2012

she felt so numb and dreamy

i have miles and miles of words inside my head but nothing here.
i have beautiful books and magazines standing near my bed unread.
i have flowers at my window that hold on even if i do not water them every day.
and they still reborn beautiful again.

Thursday, October 4, 2012

pавда quietness

here we were in Ravda, a small place with people going on with their lives, kids playing football, a fisherman on the sea, small stores in small houses near the main street. and quietness.
at first that thing scared me, but now, as i catched a cold and i am sitting here behind a laptop screen, i miss that place.
:), the irony, right?

Monday, October 1, 2012

Saturday, September 29, 2012

i could see the veins through your skin like a map to inside you

these are some of my latest purchases. the top is from divided, 2e, hah, love it :).
i adore these details you can see through it, like daisies and the crocheted seams.
also the ring is pretty hard, but i like it, ordered it online.
tonight i'm going to a wedding in another city, i don't fancy at all these types of events, but i will go because it's about one dear person in my life.
hopefully it won't that bad after all. we'll see.

Thursday, September 27, 2012

first days

first days of seaside. i can't write more about it, i still feel strange being home, i ain't recovered, yet.
obsessively listening to summertime sadness.

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

baby i had my red lips on last night


i almost never have the courage to wear coloured lips outside my white walls.
almost.
times will change.

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

she loved mysteries so much that she became one


today i'm leaving for the seaside.
hope to breathe easy, see and picture beautiful feelings.

Thursday, September 6, 2012

our hands are like ghosts

and i finally have my wolfribcage, as i like to call it.

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

give me poetry of commas to hide between my teeth, that only you can find


trying to eat something and organize the magazines as i found by the window this anthropologie catalogue.
feeling slightly aerial today.

Sunday, September 2, 2012

living is like tearing through a museum


this was my first day of september.
my saturday.
my air.
10 km of purity.

Friday, August 31, 2012

restless hearts sleep alone tonight


feeling a bit blue-ish tonight.
just me and my bed.
you.. i don't know where you are.

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

i fall in my skin

my latest purchases are a black see through dress, has the perfect minimal touch along with a simple black shirt under it and the perfect hairclip.
do i still think about other clothes and shoes and accessories?
the hell i do.
(pardon my honesty)

Monday, August 20, 2012

south of the border, west of the sun


i know, phone photos = no quality.
but hey, who cares with those views?

Friday, August 17, 2012

simple girls are quirky

for the last days of summer.
i bought a comfy oversized striped blouse from takko and a pair of black and animal print ballet flats from the local market, but they're still waiting for the first walk (on their sole it's written "dream girl". predestined, right? :) ).
i've been drinking lots of tea cups, eating lots of soups, trying to take my bike for promenades, read more often.
i am still learning what it's like to grow more on the inside and take care of the outside and.. be free.
but yes, sometimes i feel so little and like i'm running out of time.

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

my heart is a valley of earthquakes

i made it to the butterflies exhibition at the museum of natural sciences and i am very happy, i need more days and nights out.

Friday, August 3, 2012

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

i campaign in poetry, but i govern in photography


i was really glad when one of the editors of the newly on print zine All Hollow sent me the pilot issue and it finally arrived (i live at the end of the world, that's it).
needless to say i love magazines and i collect those close to my heart. what i love most about All Hollow, beside the black and white content and the scent ? (yes, i adore the smell of fresh printed paper) :) the truthful words of the editor in chief in the first pages and of course, the sensual nude photography session of Veronica Pascu. actually what captured my heart was that these weren't just simple black and white photos, they also had a hint of color in different places of the body, giving them a special light.
and yes, it is worth it, for that breath of fresh air.

Thursday, July 26, 2012

the rest is rust and stardust

shopping lately.
found a cheap version of the feather necklace at a local shop, 1e.
i keep thinking about a daisy/black faux leather bag while i'm scared for saturday, the big day is finally coming. all uni thing will be over.